Going to work to play...

It's no secret: I miss "playing" in my kitchen. If you've seen my last post, you will know why I'm somewhat struggling to even contemplate the idea of cooking or baking something nice just for the fun of it. I actually hate spending time in the kitchen right now, never mind hours wondering whether I should add another teaspoon of this spice or not. Don't get me wrong, I do it when I have to and I still cook our family meals because, well, we do need to eat, but even plating up for three people is quite awkward as there's nowhere near the stove to put three plates, two is the limit. Yes, it's awkward, annoying and puts a real damper on any creativity in the kitchen. 

It is also forcing me to rethink everything I'm blogging about, look at what I love to share and find a way to carry on in an altered way. I've enjoyed working on recipes, shooting the food and sharing it all so much that I feel nervous at not being able to do this right now. I wonder about letting people down who might come here for the recipes. It's like something is really missing for me and somehow posts about my home don't quite fill that void. Maybe it's because I feel that there are only so many pictures I can share of it before somebody goes "enough already!" or maybe it's because I'm not sure about how interesting the whole makeover process is to anybody but me. The strange thing is that when I started blogging, it was all about interiors, so I'm in a way as surprised as you (if you've been here for that long) to find myself a little worried about sharing too much about this particular subject. It's like I'm a bit stranded. I'm stuck between subjects. Having said that, I'm of course very excited about it all myself and I love doing the work on the house to make it our own so will be showing you quite a few of the results. After all, it is a big part of my life at the moment and one I want to share. So stay tuned for more good (hopefully!), bad and downright ugly interiors pics and posts. 

As for the food, well, at least I still have my work to indulge in my passion and when I get to spend two full days in a fully functioning, clean, very bright and very, very white and light kitchen (in other words, on location), all I can think is how lucky I am. Cooking and styling with a fabulous and extremely fun team around me (who just so happen to also like the food I made) just has to be the best job in the world. At least for me. I made hazelnut butter, grilled aubergines filled with garlicky cheese, mussels in a white wine and crème fraîche sauce and asian style steamed salmon. If these sound good to you, then you can find short videos (and yes, they're my hands...) as well as the recipes on AO Life. Whilst it was of course serious work, it was also a huge amount of fun and great to get away from my own grotty nightmare which will hopefully one day turn into a fully functioning kitchen... 

If you're interested in learning more about cake decorating, food styling and photography then you can join myself, Aimee Twigger and Lily Vanilli at our weekend retreat in North Devon in April. Find out more here