This is it! Those of you who follow me on Instagram will have seen my pic yesterday morning. The one where I mentioned I had picked up some pain au chocolat on my way to my boss's house. It was the nice thing to do I thought, considering I was about to tell her that I was quitting my job. Yes, that's it. Quit my secure (as secure as any job is nowadays, anyway) job with a regular monthly income to become a freelancer.
And I've done it. I've handed in my notice and in a little under eight weeks I will have to rely on myself, my talents, my perseverance, my (few) contacts and maybe a little luck. I couldn't be happier and more excited. At the same time, I couldn't be more scared! It's a scary prospect to have to rely on various avenues for my income without the safety net that regular employment provides or rich parents to buy me a cushy pad in a swanky part of London where I don't actually have to worry about pedestrian things like mortgage payments yet still claim to "stand on my own two feet" - you get the picture… No, I really have to make it work myself or I'll sink, just like the majority of freelancers out there.
So, what now? Well, I'm working out my notice period while cramming in the freelance work I'm already doing on the side. I have an exciting project coming up which I hope will lead to something bigger. I have a few things in the pipeline, but - and that's the thing about freelancing I guess - nothing is yet 100% confirmed. So I'm in a state of hope and slightly apprehensive excitement. Doubts though? None really. I know I can make it, besides, failure really isn't an option. I know it will be tough at times and I'm sure there will be moments when I'll wonder where the next job will come from. But to me, the most important thing is that I'm going my own way, nobody else's. I will work for myself in the field I've always wanted to work in.
Of course I couldn't do it completely alone. Monsieur's support and encouragement have helped enormously in the decision making process and will continue to do so during the tough times. I've had support from some very lovely friends and two very special professionals in the field for which I'm hugely grateful. I hope you all know who you are. And, whether you, my lovely readers, are aware of it or not, you're helping so much too. When I read your encouraging and complimentary comments, I truly feel that you believe in my work which in turn has made me more confident over time. I don't live in a bubble all by myself and when I style or photograph a piece of work I do of course rely on the reaction of my audience or customer, otherwise I wouldn't have a job and there would be no point in doing any of this. So, Thank You to all of you and I hope you'll keep complimenting, criticising, reading and commenting. I'm looking forward to this new adventure and hope you will join me. xo